Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
stunted.
i need to s l o w down.
i am so bad about getting into my everyday routine and just not taking a breath. i know almost everyone struggles with this.and i feel like here lately all i've heard is to make sure you find solitude and silence. and that you need to take time to relax and just be. and i've never really been able to relate...but in the past few days i've kinda been slapped in the face with some reality.
i have realized that i find comfort in the noise.
i find comfort in the distractions.
i really need to breathe. the noise and distractions help me avoid the things that i really should be confronting. and when i'm avoiding those things i'm really stunting my growth.
which is never good.
i am so bad about getting into my everyday routine and just not taking a breath. i know almost everyone struggles with this.and i feel like here lately all i've heard is to make sure you find solitude and silence. and that you need to take time to relax and just be. and i've never really been able to relate...but in the past few days i've kinda been slapped in the face with some reality.
i have realized that i find comfort in the noise.
i find comfort in the distractions.
i really need to breathe. the noise and distractions help me avoid the things that i really should be confronting. and when i'm avoiding those things i'm really stunting my growth.
which is never good.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
eight facts.
okay, so i was never officially "tagged" but i really wanted to play this game so...here i go...eight things about me...and no one can stop me :)
1) i cannot sing or dance. but my ultimate dream is to be on broadway.i always wanted to take dance lessons but it was really expensive so i was never able to do it. and there is not a single person in my family that can sing...so i guess my dream is kinda just that...a dream.
2) i lack motivation more than anyone i've ever met in my entire life. it doesn't matter how badly i want something...i would sooner give up than actually try to work for it. i know...that's horrible. but also very true.
3) i have an obsession with the tv show 'charmed.' incase you've never heard of it... it's a show about three sisters who are witches. it's actually a very strange show with bad affects ,cheesey lines, and not so great acting. but for some reason i love it. and i watch it everyday, it's definately a guilty pleasure.
4) oreos dipped in peanut butter is my absolute favorite food. sometimes i eat it for dinner. it's amazing.
5) i have no talent. i am not good at any sport , i am not artistic or creative, like i said earlier i can't sing or dance, i have no deep or profound thoughts that i could poeticly write on paper...it's really a bummer. and it used to really upset me even though i would joke about it. but it's something that i'm learning to live with and accept about myself.
6) i love rain. it's symbolic and it's beautiful. and for me , it always seems to come at the perfect time.
7) for awhile i've been saying that i want to be a sports trainer. but just the other day i came to the conclusion that broken bones freak me out...so i guess i'm going to have to rethink my career choice...which sucks.
8) my father and i are the same person. we do not get along, we haven't spoken in months, but it's just because we are so much alike. i try to deny it all the time but if i really think about it is the truth. we avoid the tough subjects, we joke about the things that hurt us so people don't know we are upset, we are stubborn and never want to admit we are wrong. the fact that we are so much alike is the main reason me and my dad have so many issues in our relationship.
well that was fun...
1) i cannot sing or dance. but my ultimate dream is to be on broadway.i always wanted to take dance lessons but it was really expensive so i was never able to do it. and there is not a single person in my family that can sing...so i guess my dream is kinda just that...a dream.
2) i lack motivation more than anyone i've ever met in my entire life. it doesn't matter how badly i want something...i would sooner give up than actually try to work for it. i know...that's horrible. but also very true.
3) i have an obsession with the tv show 'charmed.' incase you've never heard of it... it's a show about three sisters who are witches. it's actually a very strange show with bad affects ,cheesey lines, and not so great acting. but for some reason i love it. and i watch it everyday, it's definately a guilty pleasure.
4) oreos dipped in peanut butter is my absolute favorite food. sometimes i eat it for dinner. it's amazing.
5) i have no talent. i am not good at any sport , i am not artistic or creative, like i said earlier i can't sing or dance, i have no deep or profound thoughts that i could poeticly write on paper...it's really a bummer. and it used to really upset me even though i would joke about it. but it's something that i'm learning to live with and accept about myself.
6) i love rain. it's symbolic and it's beautiful. and for me , it always seems to come at the perfect time.
7) for awhile i've been saying that i want to be a sports trainer. but just the other day i came to the conclusion that broken bones freak me out...so i guess i'm going to have to rethink my career choice...which sucks.
8) my father and i are the same person. we do not get along, we haven't spoken in months, but it's just because we are so much alike. i try to deny it all the time but if i really think about it is the truth. we avoid the tough subjects, we joke about the things that hurt us so people don't know we are upset, we are stubborn and never want to admit we are wrong. the fact that we are so much alike is the main reason me and my dad have so many issues in our relationship.
well that was fun...
Sunday, July 8, 2007
birthday girl.
hello my name is lauren and i am seventeen.
i can now legally drive with as many people in my car as i desire.
and i can also see 'R' rated movies. bah!
it has been a year of changes and growing for me. it's safe to say that i had been at my all time low and God so graciously extended his arm to pull me out of an extremely dark hole. there has been a number of times in the past year when i wanted to give up...to fall down and not get up. but i'm so thankful that i can look back and see how all that has shaped me into who i am today. i am aware that there will be times when things get rough and i'm feeling low. but i am so grateful that i've had this past year to prepare for those times.
i can now legally drive with as many people in my car as i desire.
and i can also see 'R' rated movies. bah!
it has been a year of changes and growing for me. it's safe to say that i had been at my all time low and God so graciously extended his arm to pull me out of an extremely dark hole. there has been a number of times in the past year when i wanted to give up...to fall down and not get up. but i'm so thankful that i can look back and see how all that has shaped me into who i am today. i am aware that there will be times when things get rough and i'm feeling low. but i am so grateful that i've had this past year to prepare for those times.
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