sacrafice.

"A wise man once said you can have anything in life if you will sacrifice everything else for it. What he meant is nothing comes without a price. So before you go into battle, you better decide how much you're willing to lose. Too often, going after what feels good means letting go of what you know is right, and letting someone in means abandoning the walls you've spent a lifetime building. Of course, the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don't see coming, when we don't have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that's when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear."

what a bummer.

thank you north carolina for ruining my hopes and dreams of winning 500 dollars.

lies.

"No matter how hard we try to ignore or deny it, eventually the lies fall away, like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth. It hurts. So we lie."

ick.

and all at once that crowd begins to say,
" sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same..."


ick...that's so true.

as much as i would love to deny it...it's the truth.

the gosh dern truth.

well...he did it...

i don't think i've ever experienced god in the way that i did tonight.

i've been in the dark and bringing myself down for so long now. and i've known that the only way out was everything i was running from. but we can only run for so long.

god's shown me that it is time. time to start living and stop killing time. it's time to start fighting and stop making excuses for myself. i know it's not always going to be easy and i will fall. but 'to fail is not to try.'

( i quoted 'superchick' twice in this post...i'm cool)

NOT ENOUGH TIME!!!

i've been so busy this week! there are not enough hours in a day.

i don't have any time to sleep, do my homework,think,breathe, or wash my hair ( not that i really do that anyway...but i like to have the option.)

i'm just really hoping that through all this hectic-ness, ( is that a word? ) god can reveal himself to me somehow. i love it when he does that =)

woot woot

I am aware that my last post was a very long time ago...but it's for a good reason i promise. my computer was really messed up and did not function at all. but good news everyone....

i am now a member of the mac club! woot woot. yep...my macbook and i are going to become very good friends...this is can tell already.

the past two weeks have been extremely stressful and well...just long. nothing has seemed to go just right. everytime there's been something good or something to smile about , there has been something really icky to outweigh that good. and although it's probably my own fault that i've let the bad outnumber the good...it's still been really frustrating.

so maybe that should be my goal for this week ... to see the positives .

to be...optimistic

i know this sounds horrible but this will really be challenging for me.

let's see how it goes....